Case Narrative

A Consenting Juveniles narrative is a first-hand account reporting the words of the research subject on his or her experience.

The narrative on this page is an anonymous account of correspondence conducted by SOL Research. All names of persons and places, as well as other personal details have been changed.

Translated from the original Dutch for SOL Research.


We are still together after more than 25 years.

Source:   SOLR correspondence

Hal is a freelance photographer and creative design instructor. The views below are expressed on his blog under his real name. When contacted by SOL Research, he provided additional details of the relationships in his youth and asked that he be included in this research anonymously.

I saw a post on Twitter asking me to sign a petition that would call on the government to use chemical castration on anyone diagnosed with pedophilia.

I sat brooding for days about how to respond. From a young age, at least since I was 13, I knew I was attracted to older guys. My sexual fantasies always revolved around big, macho men taking care of me.

I’ll never forget the day when my class went swimming and we all threw our gym teacher into the pool with his clothes on. I must have stared at him for over an hour while he sat half-naked, drying on the bench. I thought his hairy chest was one of the most beautiful things I’d ever seen.

I was sexually active when I was about 13 or 14. First it was child’s play, but when I was 15 it was full-blown sex with older boys. At 17, I had a relationship for about a year with a man who was 27. We had sex all the time. I also came out at that age. We had an open relationship, so I also had a lot of sex with other men, almost always older than me.

Not long after turning 18, I met the man who is now my husband. He was 42. We are still together after more than 25 years.

I’m the same age now as the men I used to dream about (between 40 and 60). So now I could have a relationship with someone my own age, but when I was young that was out of the question. I felt older than my age and acted that way. My peers seemed so immature and goofy, so I always hung around with older people, both male and female. The funny thing is that when I was young, people always thought I was older, but now people guess my age younger than I am.

I object to these initiatives to punish pedophiles. Not all sexual relationships between minors and adults are abusive. Mine weren’t.